soooooo today i finally got my permit....FREEDOM!!! The thing is is that no one wants me to drive with them. that's kind of frustrating but whatever. I should learn to not care about things. its so weird how Chris got a B+ on his driving final when i got a B. HE FAILED EVERY TEST WE TOOK AND NOW HE GETS A BETTER GRADE THEN ME! WHAT'S UP WITH THAT!!! Oh geez now I'm competing with him. I don't want people to see me as the fat depressing, lame little girl that I am. I want to make more of myself and do something productive. The problem is is that I am so lazy that i make the guy in that in the worlds of warcraft episode in south park looks good. I'M A TOTAL FAILURE!!!!!! I'm basically just going on and on and on about nothing. It's not like anyone's going to read this though. Who would look up my name on google and find this blog and read about how depressing and insecure and lame and a failure I am. I don't know why I'm even writing this. It kind of feels good to get this off my chest though, but if anyone I know reads this I'm totally fucked. I'm going to write a novel, which is probably never going to get published...or finished in that manner. I'm going to write about my life but change the names of people so it seems like a fiction story and not an autobiography. Like come on! Who in the world is going to read an autobiography about me?!?!?!?! i have no life what-so-ever!! "I want to take a permenent nap." I quote this from those depression videos we watch in health. I know it's a serious issue but who really says that and means it. The guy in the video was an actor, what does he know about people's lives? Me on the other hand wants to crawl under a rock and stay there...not so that I would commit suicide or something; just a hiding place. A place to call my own other than my rooom which by the way has no lock so i have no privacy at all. In the movie Guess Who with Ashton Kutcher his fiancee brings him to a place where she goes just to get away from it all and think. I seriously need a place like that. I found one but there is absolutely no way that I'm walking there during the night. HERE WE GO AGAIN!! I sound so depressing... :|. well i'm going to post this right now so that i don't have to rant about anymore things and so it doesn't make me sound like I have a problem. I probably sound like I have ADD or ADHD.....well yea maybe I'll post something tomorrow....or mamybe not...