The Opposite Sex

Okay, so yea i admit I like him, but he definitely doesn't like me and I don't blame him. I mean look at me I'm no Charlene or Natty who are both stunningly beautiful. It's my fault for that, but what's done is done right :/. Sometimes I dream I'm like either one of them and actually have a chance with him. Truth is most things i tell them is a lie because my life is boring and has no meaning and they would think my one and only friend is weird. I want them to see me lime I'm trying to be like them, I don't know how to be me, and even if I did I wouldn't know who me is...if that makes sense. I'm just awkward around the opposite sex. I don't know how to flirt with guys and it's a bad thing. But yea I'm absolutely clueless about these things.....I haven't written a poem lately. My next post is gonna be a poem.