sisters

I've always wanted an older sister. Instead I'm stuck with one older and younger brother. Don't get me wrong I love them very much, but being the only girl in the house sucks ( my mom doesn't count). I love to read, and in each book I pick up the story line is usually about sister an sister. I don't think I've read a book that's about brother and sister. In these books the main character has flashbacks of what it was like when her and her sister were little, or when her and her sister talked about boys, school, friends, and other shit. I can't talk to my brother about these things because he won't get it. Boys minds are different from girls and sometimes it makes it hard to communicate. I have girl cousins that are like my sisters but its not the same. I long to have a sister who would understand me even though we are polar opposites. I wouldn't mind a younger sister so I could help her out with her problems. But that's never going to happen. I wonder if Ramsley is happy he has both a younger sister and younger brother. Or maybe he didn't want to be the oldest and wanted an older brother. I don't know. All I know is having another girl in the house would be fun. Yes we would get into fights but we would laugh about them later. Yes we would cry over things but we'd help each other get through it. Yes our personalities would collide but that's what makes us stronger, knowing that we're different and being able to understand each other. That's what I want in life. To have that feeling you get when you see your sister talk about her new boyfriend and how she's in love. To watch her go shopping for the perfect dress for the school dance. To watch chick flicks and cry on the couch together while eating ice cream. If I had one wish it would be that I would have an older sister...along with my older brother and younger brother as well. I cried myself to sleep once because I knew wishes don't come true and I'd never have an older sister. I guess all I have are my girl cousins but they don't fill the hole in my heart of wanting a real sister. I know I should just accept reality that I won't ever have one but I can dream.